Dad, you were in my dreams last night.

The feeling of your presence

Was the closest I have ever felt to Heaven.

So this, is what Heaven feels like.

It continued in the morning

Whilst half awake in morning light

This extension of Heaven.

It felt so good.

So grateful to feel you with me.

As the day went on

It sadly faded.

And you left me again,

Back to Heaven.

You give me paradise for a small moment.

As you are my paradise.

Paradise lost,

Forever.

I reel in darkness, alone, again.

I am living.

In a certain kind of

Hell.

I miss you so much Dad.

Sitting alone at night,

Hoping you are sitting with me.

In the quiet.

Reserving this time, for you, only.

Waiting the long wait,

For Paradise again.

Natasha Haidar © 2018